For the first time in over 2 years, I felt like I was making headway.
I finally felt good enough to write letters, cook most of my meals, and even leave the house occasionally, but something still wasn't right. No matter how much I ate, I kept losing weight (now dipping down into the 90s).
I tried eating even more, but my weight kept plummeting—along with my newly regained energy.
It was like my life force was returning and fading at the same time. ... Read More
It had been over a year and a half since the day I got sick...
The fever and nausea finally started to subside (hallelujah!), but I still felt queasy and bloated, and I didn't have the energy to get out of bed—much less leave the house.
I had already been to 14 doctors, and I just couldn't stomach going to another one.
And then my mother heard about a doctor who performed a special blood test—some kind of "alternative medicine." In an act of ... Read More
It was mid-November, 1992.
I lay there in the dark, strategizing how I was going to get to my landline in the corner of the room.
I finally mustered up the strength to roll over and then slid off the side of the bed onto the carpet. It took about half an hour to crawl-rest-crawl my way over to the phone.
I could hear the panic in my mom's voice when she answered.
"I feel like I'm dying," I sobbed. "I want to come home."
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Graduation was just around the corner, and I had one thing on my mind—to move to the city and become a hairstylist.
It was a dream I had since I was 5 years old. I'd spend hours giving my mom "free hairdos" in my imaginary salon. Then I started experimenting with scissors on my dolls, and then my own hair, and then my most forgiving friends and family. My ultimate goal was to become a runway stylist in New York City. (Yup, ... Read More
I remember the moment I got sick.
It was an icy Maine night in December of 1991, halfway through my senior year in high school. I was playing pool with my boyfriend in his parents' garage—smoking Camel cigarettes and listening to The Doors on cassette. It was my turn to take a shot when a wave of nausea washed over me. Not long after, it progressed into what I thought was the flu—body aches, fever, fatigue, the works.
After several days in bed, ... Read More
Digestion goes far beyond what you put in your mouth.
For example, have you ever noticed how much harder it is to take in food when you're surrounded by clutter and noise? Or how about when you're in a bad mood?
According to Chinese medicine, your thoughts, emotions, words, and environment all get digested—right along with your soup n' sandwich. Unfortunately, not everything is as easy to swallow...
We may not be able to make stress and worries magically go away, but there are ... Read More
Not to be a party pooper, but I think enthusiasm is overrated.
Don't get me wrong. I'm all for genuine joy and elation. But there's also this other kind of enthusiasm that we paint on our faces when we want folks to like us or we think we're being polite.
You know, like when you run into someone you haven't seen in a while at the grocery store. You may feel distracted and tired after a long day, but you still muster up ... Read More
The other day, I hit a wall.
I was laying on the couch, surrounded by papers and dirty lunch dishes, trying to organize my to-do list. I was so tired I couldn't think straight, and everything felt much more overwhelming than it ...
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If you're feeling frazzled or scattered these days, it's totally understandable. The events of the past week (on top of the last year) are enough to throw anyone for a loop.
This calls for some extra strength grounding.
In this video, I'll show ...
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How's your pilot light? No, not that kind... I'm referring to the eternal flame, deep in your lower belly.
That proverbial light is an aspect of the Water Element in Chinese medicine, and it relates to your strength and your will to ...
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Sooner or later, an appointment will be forgotten. Dishes will stack. Good food will go bad.
It happens to all of us—especially when we've got a lot on our plates. The more we add, the harder it is to manage, and inevitably, ...
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